it's been a crazy, hectic, year

It's the 31st of December.

And you know what that means....

Eating nutella and regretting my life decisions! Nah, not really, This year has been pretty much, in one word; awesome. Starting high school has been life changing, it's opened up and offered me so many new opportunities, friends and not to mention experiences I'll remember years to come. In fact, just a few minutes ago I pranked my brother into thinking I was controlling his computer. He though it was a hacker at first, and was literally freaking out, I wanted to continue the prank for a few more days but I felt so bad I just had to end it.

this was him during the prank

this was him after I confessed

Asides from this major highlight in my life, which is being able to successfully prank my brother (asides from the unfortunate fact that I forgot to take a video of it) there's a lot of things that I've had happen to me this year, both highs and lows that I;ll take as a learning opportunity in preparation for year 8. 

During this break I played GTA: San Andreas, and also finished the game. The ending credits nearly made me tear up. Apart from that, there were plenty of instances in school and out when I felt like doing just that, except for the opposite reasons. If you people even bother reading my blog, you'd know that the may-july time period was definitely one of my darkest moments of this year. I struggled to keep up with homework, assignments, this resulted in me being really moody and always lashing out at my family. I'm not proud of the fact that these things happened, I'm proud that I was able to improve. And that, is one of my biggest accomplishments this year. 

Science was one of the subjects that I had to get used to as I was pretty clueless when it came to everything related to it, don't get me wrong, I still get puzzled over scientific things, just not as much as the start of the year. It's a pretty embarrassing thing to admit since I want to be a doctor when I grow up, but oh well, what can you do. *Mum Voice* "Probably study harder and stop spending so much time on your laptop!" 

Anyway.

I got surprisingly good results for science in my report card, and because of that I am SO HAPPY. I thought I was lucky just to be able to get an 'A' but no, there was more to come! I am so grateful because of this reason, and countless others, but this achievement (bringing my science grade up from a B to an A) is something I will always cherish whenever I feel down or uninspired to improve. Newsflash; It's possible. I have proof. 

Besides that, there are other things that have given me the chance to improve, but the number one thing that I've learnt is to just enjoy yourself. Trust me, one year from now, things that seemed to complicated will turn out to have simply been mere speed bumps in your journey of life. 

did i really just write that

Of course there are some things that I wish I could change, but the fact is; you can't. So until you grow up and learn to accept that, you won't be able to move forward. It will destroy you.

#realtalk #cantbelieveijustusedahastag

Wow, my blogging skills are just amazing.

I want to remember this year as life changing, and in all honesty. It was. It was everything that I could have asked for and more. It was inspirational. It was hopelessness. It was emotions flying everywhere. It was me discovering who I am, one step at a time.  Smiles, tears, laughs, cries, they all contributed to making this year epic. 

My life isn't some picture perfect fairy tale, nor is it some posh hollywood lifestyle. But the important thing to remember is that it's mine. So many people don't even get the chance to enjoy their life. I think that's a big thing to remember, It's hard, there'll be times when you feel like letting go, but it's your life. You have the opportunity to help someone in need. You have the chance to break free of the whatever is holding you down. You can do anything you want. You. 

Now, I don't intend this to be some sentimental post about believing in yourself, but I do think this should be about being happy. As this year ends, another will start. The world won't stop spinning for you, so don't do the same for it. I know for sure that I'm going to do everything I possible can to make 2015 amazing. I won't hold back. Every day is a blessing that countless people don't have the chance to experience, so remember that when you're sad. I will.

Gosh, I sound so cheesy. But like I said, now's the perfect to be cheesy than any other. You can use 2015 as an opportunity to do wonderful things, or quite the opposite. It's your decision.

So make your choices count. 

Goodbye 2014!

school more like no

exclusive footage of me exiting the school

So school ended.

And basically I'm going ballistic because of all the new opportunities that I can finally take advantage of during the holidays. I can't wait to just wake up at 10 in the morning and not have to instantly regret not setting my alarm. Not to mention all the things I'll be able to do instead of idly blinking in a desk in front of the teacher. And no studying!! How great is that? I'll finally be able to relax and not constantly check my diary every five minutes to finish all my homework. Also, the cover of my diary was starting to fall apart, it's kind of sad, really. Just like when my umbrella was absolutely trashed because of a really windy day, and Mr Z came into the Geography room and looked it and said, "Wow, that's the saddest umbrella I've ever seen." Followed by inevitable question, "Who's is it?" Which led to nearly the whole class looking at me, and me slowly sinking into the hole of embarrassment that had just opened up on the ground. 

Asides from that, I wanted to talk about my day in this post. so that's exactly what I intend on doing. Starting from the very start of school. 

MY VERY DETAILED(?) RECOUNT

The day started off with me being late to school, topped off with the fact that I basically had no idea where to go, I was in big trouble. However, everything was okay again when I noticed my friend. I was so relieved when I saw her, and she told me that we basically had to go to our first period of the day. She also happened to mention that I would be receiving an official award in the MPU, along with the all the people in my friend circle. I was ecstatic.

So, I entered the classroom, and the teacher totally forgot about us! After 20 minutes, my friend and I had to go and tell her, and she was just like, "Oh, I though it was Thursday!" This led to us being one of the last classes to make it to MPU, where we were told to bring a gold coin donation. I, being the idiot I am, didn't realise you didn't have to donate, so I hurriedly rushed to classroom to get my money. By the time I came back, everyone in the MPU was seated and singing the national anthem. 

I had to ask one of the teachers where I should sit, because I was receiving an award, and he told me to sit on one of the seats in the front. But, since the seating was meant to be in alphabetical order, I was in the wrong seat and far, far away from where I was supposed to be sitting. 15 minutes and tons of panic later, I finally got the opportunity to slip past people and sit in my allocated spot. 

Then, I had to quickly rush to receive my award, and sit back down in my seat. After that, I was able to relax and actually discover what awards I had been given. Geography and Science! I was so excited, I'm still really really happy, especially since I consider Science to be one of my worst subjects. But hey, if my teacher's happy I'm happy! 

The following hour (it felt like it) was spent clapping for other people, and listening to them getting awards. As you can tell, it got a little tiring after a while. I basically wanted to this. 

except in this case i would have awards in my hand

So that was that.

When all of that ended, I got to enjoy festivus, and eat all the food I could possible want. I bought tons of jewelry, such as bracelets and necklaces, and I'm wearing one of them right now. It's this really pretty butterfly one. My friends also gave me some pressies for the end of the year, and one of the most interesting things I got was a pedicure/manicure set. I've never actually used one before, so it'll be interesting to see how this one goes. One of my friends gave me chocolate aND IT WAS SO DELICIOUS!!  

Anyway, there was loads of music playing, and performances, but the definite highlight of the day was the sumo wrestling match between numerous teachers. It was hilarious to watch. 

Towards the end of the day, everyone started packing up, and were getting ready to receive the school reports, I was extremely nervous for them because I felt like I would do horrible. The suspense was of pure agony in the MPU as people hesitantly waited for their report. As soon I got mine, my heart immediately started to speed up. It was pretty much my soundtrack as I read through my report. But nervousness quickly turned to happiness as I found out that I did pretty damn well! The only mark that wasn't as good as I wanted it to be was PDHPE, but I don't really care about that, so let's just forget about it being an actual subject for the time being. I got an A for science!!!!! I accomplished one of my main goals for the year! Compared to the last two terms, my report for this term is something I am really proud of. My mum was happy with it as well, particularly the one for science. 

All in all, this year has been in one word; awesome. I've met so many lovely people, and without them my experiences of this year would simply not be the same. I've learnt so many new things, and have definitely matured as a person. I can can't wait for being in Year 8 next year, and not be referred to as a 'sevvie' anymore. 

I wouldn't change one thing for this year, and I know that;

All the despair, happiness and hope has led to this moment. And I can say that I am proud of who I have become, as always there is room for improvement, but for now I am grateful for the things that have happened this because without them I would not be the same person I am today. It sounds really cheesy, I know, yet it's the truth.

So as I bid this school year adieu, I leave you with one of my favourite lines from a song that I heard today. 

mockingjay

I kind of forgot to mention that I watched Mockingjay on Friday from school. Oh, the privileges of being in book club. 

Mockingjay definitely exceeded my expectations. It was downright amazing. The music, the pacing, and pretty much everything else worked seamlessly together to provide an awesome viewing experience. I still can't get over Jennifer Lawrence singing Hanging Tree in the movie. It was moving. In fact, even the credits had this slow paced song by Lorde that only seemed to emphasize the events that had just happened.

Sure, it was just Part 1. But I've gotta say, I am super excited to watch Part 2 next year. Especially since this movie was bomb. I wouldn't change one thing. Just thinking about the movie is getting me excited, Mockingjay Part 1 had everything that I wanted and more. I remember being so immersed in the movie that I would just lean forward to experience every moment of it, but I think it was from the moment that Katniss agreed to be the Mockingjay that I truly felt the greatness of the movie,

Anyway, that was just my short post for today. We're going to Jamberoo sometime next week. I can't wait! Especially since one of my friends who thought she wouldn't be able to go, is able to go now! We had this swim test last week, and everyone was so nervous for it, including me. I passed, however it was a bittersweet moment since my friend couldn't make it. But it's all good now since there's going to be another one for the people who couldn't make it, so I guess she's happy about that as well.

...and then after that it's the holidays! Whoo!

the crying game

The title pretty much sums up my whole day, to be honest. If you've read my previous post, you'd know that I've recently been obsessed with this series called The Lying Game by Sara Shepard. It's literally perfection.  

Anyway, so I was reading the last book of the series, which is called Seven Minutes in Heaven and this was me as I was reading it

This was me at the start

This was me halfway through

...and this was me as I finished it

I've gotta say, I definitely do not regret all those hours I put into reading it, because this series was amazing. It's been a while since I've read such a great series, and I'm especially referring to two of my all-time favourite series, both by the same author. The Mediator, and The Princess Diaries by Meg Cabot. 

I couldn't believe the ending of this series though! I didn't expect it at all! Well, I did have a sneaking suspicion but I always never guess the killer in shows like NCIS or anything, so I didn't exactly think I would be right! I'm just glad that no one spoiled the ending for me, as someone who's had that done to me before, I know about the grieving process that comes afterwards, so please, anyone who's reading this, NEVER EVER SPOIL THE ENDING OF A BOOK SOMEONE IS READING! 

I can't emphasize this enough, I mean, if anyone spoiled TLG for me I would probably straight-up punch them!

Anyway, I want this post solely to be about TLG because it deserves it, but just on a quick, unrelated note, school end next week on Wednesday! (I literally had to say Wed-nes-day while writing that, btw,) I can't believe that! 

Now all the blood, sweat and tears actually seem worth it! Anywho, I hope you guys like this post, and the gifs as well! #twopostsinaday #proudofmyself

#bye

i'm on a roller coaster that only goes up, my friend

I know, I used a TFIOS quote. Sue me. I just can't believe that I managed to survive high school, and discover so many things about myself at the same time. One thing I can believe, though, is the fact that it's already this time of the year. I can easily say how many days I've felt like not wanting to get out bed, pulling late-nighters to finish assessments, not to mention the countless times when I've literally just felt like rolling into one corner of my room and crying. Which is why, I am not surprised it's December. Along with all the cheery decorations, this time of the year is also jampacked full of sales, and that is specifically why I will not hesitate in doing all the shopping I can with my friends.

It's not a big surprise that I didn't exactly start the year in the greatest way possible, honestly, the time around may-july, was probably the darkest moments of my life. The reason being that it was already the middle of the year, and there were so many assignments and ridiculous tests just waiting to be the death of me. Thankfully, I've survived since then, and have made a gazillion note-to-selfs, which I'm planning to write a book about, because come on, that would be awesome.

This is it guys, this is my big break. I think I'm ready to go global. This book would a phenomenon. Imagine how many people would be helped by this! I know there'd definitely be a lot of things I'd put in here for sure. I can't begin to tell you how many times I've gotten in trouble, and out of it by using my wits. I think I've definitely changed from the start of the year to now, I know what to say, and people, especially some, know that I won't take any of their lazy bottom attitude. And besides, I'm going to be dealing with these people for a long time, might as well tell them to shup up, right?!?

Anyway, I've gotten really obsessed with two book series so far. The first one because, well, I know it sounds so bad, and I know people get really annoyed and think that when people do this they aren't "true fans" of the book and are reading it just because of the publicity it's getting, which is kind of the truth, but still. Basically, what it is that I'm trying to say is that one of the series that I'm currently reading right now is called The Giver. It is awesome, to say the least. I actually cried during reading it, and I received a lot of weird looks from my friends when I told them this. But I mean, they also did the exact same thing when I told that I hadn't cried while reading/watching TFIOS, so they're not exactly the most accurate judges in this context.

The one on the right is the cover of the book I was reading. Honestly, this book is perfection. It raises so many questions, so many 'what-ifs?' and definitely follows through on them, I didn't think I would like it, but was left with so may different emotions. The prime one being fascination. I think the POV was perfect for this book, and thus, I recently just borrowed the next book, "Gathering Blue" to find out what happens next. I'm pretty excited, to say the least.

I also am hooked on another series, and it's 'The Lying Game' series. Which is perfection. Since it was kind of a Pretty Little Liars type of book, I pretty much just burrowed the book to see how cliche and bad it was, but as soon as I read the first book, which was a week ago, I have been obsessed with the characters, the plot, the writing, and pretty much everything in between.

So far I've read the first few books, I finished the 2nd and 3rd book yesterday, along with the giver, and started+finished the 4th book today. This week was a hectic week for me, and I haven't even finished my Geography homework, (they've already written our reports, who cares?!?), but I mean, it's been a lot time since I've read a book like this and genuinely enjoyed it. I'm going to see if I can burrow the other by the of next week, but if I can't then I'll probably see if my local library has an ebook or something I could get.

I'm also starting Gathering Blue today, the sequel to The Giver, and I'm literally so excited.

I also brought home my metal work projects, I made a heart and flower, and I'm so happy with the way that they turned out. They're look awesome! This was me when I saw them two together. Meaning my two projects.

Anyway, I gotta go now, so I'll leave you guys with one last thought before you reach the end of this post.

I know this was a long post, but I didn't want like 50 words on how my day went or something, because that would be so boring to read.