be prepared

Let me just say one thing before you read any further,

This post is going to be a big hot mess.

Now that we've acknowledged that, let's get shall to business shall we? We shall. Sorry, I literally just woke up half an hour and let's just say that I pretty much woke up, walked across the room, picked up my laptop and went straight back to bed. So if you're reading this right now, and I sound like a ripped up dictionary with all my words flying everywhere, now you'll know why.

The first thing that I had prepared for today (yeah, I list the things I want to talk about, sue me) was talking about a new series that I think I've fallen in love with. Actually, I know I've fallen in love with it. I knew I said that no series could ever come close to The Lying Game but let me tell you, this series is awesome on a whole 'nother level. In fact, both series are perfection in their own right, so TLG is still pretty high up on the scale.

It's called Angelfall. *insert dramatic music*

The book is amazing. The main character is funny, sassy and sarcastic, and I feel that a lot of books lack that nowadays. Reading about the post apocalyptic gore, and other icky stuff can make me feel queasy at times, but it's her sense of humour that somehow whisked me away from all that kind of stuff and let me focus on the task at hand.

The second book is called World After.

aka the second time I fell in love again.

Susan Ee is an amazing writer, and the sequencing of the story, the pace, and the amount of detail put into each event was evident. I legit couldn't put the book down. The next book in the series is set to be publish on May 12 this year, and I cAN'T WAIT. THAT'S FIVE DAYS BEFORE MY BIRTHDAY! I don't even need any presents, reading End of Days will suffice.

excuse me i need a moment to breathe

There's an app in the app store called GIFs and it's basically a Gif Keyboard and I'm so jealous because there's isn't one in the play store aND DO YOU FEEL MY PAIN?!? At least all the apps are getting huge makeovers because of Android Lollipop. It's quite interesting really, so how they incorporate material design into each logo. 

Sorry, I'm just obsessed with technology.

Moving on.

You know when you read a book, and you just love and you read it as you fall asleep and your whole life revolves around that book because it's the special? #legomoviereference 

Anyway.

But then, thunder strikes and you pick up that very book later on in your life and you cringe and your heart starts beating fast because how could you EVER like that book?

Yeah, well, that's what happened to me a short time ago. 

The main character, who I was thought I could relate to, is a whiny little brat who I wish I could just beat with an umbrella. She's selfish, and she hardly ever takes the sacrifices her parents make for her into consideration. Instead, she gloats about the one thing that her parents can't do for her, and guess what, RUNS AWAY. This happens in the third book, Model Misfit and gosh,

There were so many moments when I would just wonder, why aren't the parents doing anything? I mean, she is an only child, but her step mom has a child, so now she has a sister, and the parents are always so tired just to make things work out, and she doesn't even think about that. Not even for one second. She just storms off, slams the door to her room, and expects them to be the ones to apologies.

Honey, if that were me, and I did what you just did, I would be in so much trouble. And I'm certain that so many other people would as well. And you'd think, that that the girl's about 13 or 14 but NO. She turning 17 in a few days and she's still acting like a 3 year old! The only difference is that she ain't wearing a diaper, but I'm still a little uncertain about that.

On to another topic.

Me being me, I decided to see if I could possible catch a glimpse of my year 8 timetable, 

It didn't work.

The website that I used to view last year's timetable kept on saying, "View 2014 version." So that either means that the year 8 timetables for people haven't been finalised or they forgot I went to the school and did everyone else's. I'm hoping it's the latter.

At least I'll have something interesting to blog about.

And that, my friends, is how a blogger's mind works. 

But I'm a little peeved to be honest. Apparently, people who chose to do maths extension won't get any electives this year. To top that off, we don't have any lockers, and trying to my PE uniform inside my bag is a hassle itself! My school bag end up being super heavy, and who knows what damage that's doing to my body! I'm telling you, any medical bills I'm getting are going straight to the principal. 

Anyway, there are bunch of things that I'm excited for in 2015. Such as tech advancements, which I'm super super excited for. But all in all, I'm just going to let this year...flow, the way it wants to flow. 

After all, it's not like I would be able to plan seeing Tim from BB in a mall right? I swear he's not even that famous anymore. I should have been all, "Wow, you look really familiar.." to him and watched his reaction, and then make it into a gif and use it in one of my posts.

yes. YES.

I wanted to make this post have a happier vibe than my last post, which I'm kind of scared to read again because it's basically my 2 am thoughts written on paper. Well, you get what I mean.

Hey, but imagine if there was a delete button for the internet?

what will i be like in the future?

In today's post, as suggested by the title, I have decided to talk about some of my personal fears and questions about, well, the future.

I think that at least one point in our lives, we ask ourselves this very question, "What will I be like in the future?" In fact, it is this question that is capable of drawing out madness and insanity from anyone. Everyone has different reasons for asking this question, but not everyone wants to hear the answer. But there is always one key factor that drives us to wonder this over and over again; curiosity.

There are so many other questions about life itself that can make us feel helpless just thinking about them, such as, "What is the meaning of life?" or, "What happens after we die?". Perhaps it's the mere fear of thinking about these things that leads us to distract ourselves by doing things we know we'll regret.

For instance, I could really like a book this year, but who's to say that I will next year? What if my interests change, and I'm no longer the person I am at this current moment? It scares me to think even for a second that I won't enjoy doing the things I am now, and will become a completely different person. In the end, I know it's my choice whether or not I like something, but to think of another me a year from now, or even in ten years is like thinking of another person altogether. I know I've changed drastically from the person I was last year, but I'm happy with the changes. What if I'm not happy with myself next year?

I don't know why, but lately I've been thinking about these questions. A lot. Even to the point where I envision myself as a different person, and wonder about whether or not I would approve of her one year from now. I kind of understand this feeling, because I associated it with the transition from 2014 to 2015. Everyone assumes that they'll have their life in check, they'll work on their resolutions, and just be a better person overall. But really, you're just waking up to a new day, that just happens to be in 2015. You're still the same person, you're still doing the same thing. So it's not like you suddenly just transformed into this person who has everything planned and in control, right?

So why is it, that even after knowing all this, I still continue to think about what I'll be like in the future? After all, it is up to me, right?

My goal for 2015 isn't to accomplish any resolutions (I didn't make one anyway) it's for it to be amazing, and I ain't gonna let nobody ruin this year for me.

Because you know that feeling when you don't do something, and then after much convincing you finally accomplish doing it, and how you immediately feel so happy you could burst, because you hung on, even though everything was telling you to let go?

That's what I want 2015 to be like. That's all. I just want to be happy.

 That's all life is. Breathing in, breathing out. The space between two breaths. 

...and I intend to make every moment of it count.

woke up like dis

From the moment I woke this morning, I felt really calm and nice. I don't know what it was but I had a feeling that today was going to be a good day. So far nothing horrible has happened, apart from me looking in the mirror (that was terrifying) so fingers crossed that the whole day remains this way.

I want to make some really exciting posts, but so far nothing exciting has really happened. I kind of want aliens to abduct me just so I can blog about. Do you this aliens have wifi in their UFOs? These are the real questions we should be asking.

If you guys have read this blog for a while (I really don't know if anyone does) you'd know that I am a massive tech enthusiast. Part of me wants to make a YouTube account solely related to tech stuff where I can try and review the newest devices, but that would require money. And let's face it, I ain't gonna be able to afford some iphone 6 to review! I barely have enough money to go the movies, let alone buy expensive stuff! And hello, if you're reading this blog we all know that you're in the same boat, so let's not be judgmental here, okay? Also, I am such a procrastinator. I mean, if I was going to have lunch with the president at two, chances are I'm going to wait till ten minutes before until I actually bother to get dressed. That's just me. I probably wouldn't even upload videos for a whole month, and then wonder why no is subscribing to my channel.

I'm currently looking at cydia tweaks, and even though I don't have an iPhone or any apple related product, anymore, (I gave my iPod to my brother) the videos are still pretty interesting. And who knows, maybe I will have an iPhone some day and be able to jailbreak it!

Ha. Let's not get ahead of ourselves, shall we?

Honestly, sometimes I just want to yell at people who destroy their phones or whatever on YouTube for 'research purposes' and I basically die a little every time they destroy the beautiful iPhone 6, but it's not my money so I can't really judge.

But seriously, just stop.

i'm so lazy

I totally forgot about uploading yesterday, it pretty much slipped my mind. But to be fair, I had to fix my string art project since someone, I'm not going to be naming names or anything...
*cough* oneofmybrothers *cough* wrecked it while I was asleep. Not to mention, I had to search for some more string because I didn't have enough to re do it. Plus, the string that was available was tangled...

Sorry, I couldn't help it.

Basically, I had to spend half an hour trying to untangle it, which pretty much equated to me giving up and using some string that I was trying to save,

#stringartproblems.

Anyway, yesterday wasn't really different from any other day. To be honest, I kind of expected everything to be spectacular, and have people throw parties on the street, but nothing like that happened. Probably because they're all tired from staying up so late for New Years. I wouldn't be surprised. I texted all of my friends at 12 AM in the morning, and most of them replied. Most.

Today was no different, I woke up at 10 AM, and proceeded life as normal. I reeeaaallllyyy don't want school to start soon, especially since I'm quite enjoying this holiday spirit. But hey, you can't everything in life, right? Just slave away at a desk for more than 12 years of your life, and then after that do the same, only in University, and then eventually, have that happen to you in your job. There's really no escaping is there?

BUT THIS IS MY FIRST POST OF 2015!

I just can't believe it's 2015 and there's still no flying cars. 

I mean, if there were, I would definitely be able to afford it. Ha. Ha. Ha...

It's a catchy song, alright?

So that's all I have for today, sorry if it wasn't very exciting. I'm kind of running out of things to talk about, and plus I don't think you people want to hear about what I ate for breakfast.