'cause I'm happy!

Clap along if you feel that happiness is the truth!

Anywho, as you can tell I am extremely happy because of my dichotmous keys poster! Yesterday I was in science class and people were like asking for their marks and he said that he didn't know, but then he said,"Oh, I think I gave out a 20 out of 20, yeah, I'm pretty sure I did." And then this girl was all, "Who was it?" And my science teacher turned to me and said my name! Squee! I'm so happy! (You could probably already tell from the title, though) My day has also been good today because we got to start filming out Maths related video for maths extension! One of my friends said that I was pretty good script reader, and I don't know how you're supposed to accept compliments so I was all flustered and embarrassed, but I felt really honoured inside!

I also received my nail art supplies in the mail today, and that was definitely a bonus, because now I get to practise cute designs on my nails, yay! Now, I don't even know if anyone even reads this blog, I'm pretty sure it's just me. But if there happens to be some alien from out of space reading this, or even a human being (gasp!) then welcome! As you can tell, I mainly just write for myself, so I can keep track of my life and what's going on, mainly. I don't tell anyone else about my blog, because that would be weird, and I really don't like the idea of people in my school reading this because that'd just be weird. Instead, I prefer the idea of total strangers from the other side of the world reading in on my innermost thoughts and feeling!

Anyway, that's all I have time for today. I have to start making study notes for yet another science test I have (surprise, surprise!) and I also have to edit the video clips that we took today, so yeah...

sleep *insert love heart*

You know you gotten older when you actually start to value your sleep, and that is something that is happening to me a A LOT this year. Through language tests, and science exams, somehow I've managed to acquire a deep love for sleep, which, to be exact, can be pretty damn bad when you're forced to stay up to 3 AM in the morning finishing up that one essay "You thought you could do the night before." However, it does go both ways, and nowadays I've found myself managing time better just so experience that extra hour of sleep, and yes, it may not seem so special to others, but accomplishing this great feat is pretty much my goal every single day. I'm pretty sure teenagers all over the world are nodding their heads to this one.

So, because I've managed to survive week two of term 4, I've decided to honour this momentous occasion by continuing the list of things I've learnt this year in my last post. So here goes!

4. One of the most valuable lessons I've learnt this year is to not overthink things. I can't tell you enough scenarios where I would completely destroy a happy moment by thinking about things that weren't necessary! This would result in a drastic mood turn and the constant paranoia that something bad was going to happen. Basically, I couldn't be happy without instantly thinking about the negatives of that particular scenario. I think that this habit of mine really peaked when I had a bunch assignment due and I completely did not know what to do, this was probably around May-June, and I remember feeling so down and tired, I felt helpless. It definitely didn't help that I was having friendship issues as well, in fact, I think that's one of the things that would provoke these constant panic attacks. Boy, am I happy to be here now, in a completely different mindset! Back last year, I was a pretty positive person, but I think that the transition from primary school to high school completely jumbled my thinking in the way that I had totally lost my sense of personality, but thankfully that isn't the case anymore.

5. How to manage time better, is one of things that I really struggled with at the start of the year, and even now I'm still paying for my mistakes. But I've come to accept that the past can't be changed, and because of that I deal with cases where I am swamped with homework and assignments way better than I did in the start of the year. Right now as I write this, I'm looking back to those days where I would just look at the things I had to do, and just say that I would "do it later", as you're probably thinking, that almost never resulted me in actually getting my work done, but these days I am a better time manager and I think that I handle days where we get a lot of homework quite well.

6. This point was very hard to think of, but I think the fact that I've discovered how to be a more optimistic person definitely fits this place. Nowadays, if I come back from school feeling down in the dumps because of something such as a bad mark, or an ill remark that I may have accidentally uttered, I come home with a better mindset in general. I immediately take out the positives of the situation and look forward to the next time where I can handle situations that led me to be unhappy in the first place, better. This week, I experienced a moment where I was completely caught off guard and said some things I normally wouldn't have said. But the thing is, I'm not ashamed to admit it because I know that now that I have gone through this moment, I'll try to avoid others like that in the future, and besides, it's not like anyone actually pays close detail to what you say and don't say, so I can definitely start anew next week! I'm looking forward to helping people as much as possible, and taking a stand when things aren't right! All in all, I've started to take regrets as learning experiences in hopes of a better turnout of scenarios like this in the near future!

7. I've decided to throw in one bonus point, and that's about taking a stand. I think when you're in certain situations, you react differently to things, but one thing that should remain solid throughout is your reaction when you see injustice. Take a stand. I don't know why it took me so long to become confident enough to stand up for people's rights, but I'm glad I have finally. Yes, I'm no Nelson Mandela, but I feel like in terms of school I know when or when not to stand up for other people. I think this is a big step from what I was like last year, basically I would let people walk over me if it meant that I wouldn't be targeted. But that's changed. You know the saying, out with the old, and in with the new, and that's my new motto for my reaction to injustice. I'm not going to take it. I genuinely don't care if the person that bullies or says something that they shouldn't hates me forever, but I won't let someone else get hurt by someone else's actions, and I will try to do something about it. However, I'm not going on a "anti-bullying" spree and just attack anyone who says an ill mannered remark, because I'm going to assess the situation beforehand and see if my comments are actually needed, because I don't want some psycho dude coming after me, that'd just be  stupid. Instead, I will just try and take the victim away from that scenario if I see that a remark by me is going to backfire in a really, really, bad way.

So there you have it! Some other things that I've learnt this, hope you enjoyed reading this post, because I definitely enjoyed writing! It just allowed me to become deeper with myself.

the block :(

So my latest traumatic experience (I have a lot! JK) occurred right at the moment I was watching this reality tv show called the block, as you've probably assumed from the title. It was so sad how how two of the four couples got 10,000 dollars, and one of them was lucky  to get 40,000. They worked so hard for more than 10 weeks, and all they get is a measly 10k! And the couple that everyone was betting would get the least money for their apartment actually got more than 300k!

I feel so sorry for the people who were betting that Max and Karstan would win, because now they've pretty much just lost their money, but hey, betting isn't that certain in the first place anyway, so if you ask me, they had it coming.

Anyway, I'm going pretty well with both of my goals, if you need to be reminded again one of them was to not utter a single word about needing a new phone, and the other one was not, umm, oh yeah! It was not buying anything from ebay. So far, it's going quite well, and I'm not having much trouble. I do have to restrain myself sometimes though.

I have to bid you adieu now though, as a horrible creature named homework is calling my name, mainly my Japanese study notes which I haven't even started memorising yet, and my Dichotmous Keys posters which I haven't finished yet, and are actually due on Friday. Word of warning, I might not be able to post as much, this week and the next few weeks are going to be really hectic, so yeah!

the weekend!

It's the weekend, yet I'm confined to four walls of my bedroom, being forced to do no other than..homework. Oh, what a cruel world we live in. Stuck between actually getting my homework complete or blogging about recent events, I chose the latter. Why? Because, why not? Anyway, there's not much to blog about, other than the fact that I nearly had a relapse with my ebay addiction, particularly with this item.

Yeah, I know, I know, another nail product? Well, in my defence, it seems pretty interesting and I don't actually have something like it, sooo, yeah.  Anyway, that's all I have time for today, but I shall be back! Probably around next month! Most likely in the next few days!

my addiction..

I think it's time to open up tell you guys about something that I'm dealing with, it's not really what you'd call 'easy' for me to open up like this, but I feel like you guys decide to know about it. My addiction. I, have developed an addiction over...ebay. Yes, when I'm not shopping for actual stuff I'm looking online for potential items to buy. Okay, maybe that was a bit of an exaggeration, but within the past month I think I've bought more than 10 things on that site, which, for me, is a lot. I bought a couple of watches on there, and I've received compliments on them, but I really think I should scale down the amount of purchases I make on that site. So today, I've decided, that after this month, along with my other goal (which is not mentioning about needing a new phone to my parents) I am going to stop buying things on ebay except if I absolutely need to. Today I bought a couple of nail art brushes, and I'm already feeling quite guilty about that, so after I receive my items I'm not going to buy one single thing on ebay. And that's that.

If you look really closely, there's a face in that. Anyway, that's my perception of ebay!

Unfortunately, I have to go and continue on with my dichotmous key, which is based on superheroes. Yeah, I know right? It was one of my brothers who gave me the inspiration to go along with the whole superhero idea. I was pretty nervous at first, but after telling my friends about my idea they really liked it so I was like, "Why not?". So that is my short story on how I started a superhero themed dichotomous key, which features approximately 20 superheroes. I'm really just hoping I don't get any of the facts wrong. That would be horrible!

dork diaries in real life

If you've even bothered to read the title, you probably know what this post is going to be all about. Mainly, that my life is finally containing scenes from my favourite books! Specifically, one very special book of mine. And that is;

Basically, there's this scene in this book where Nikki, the main character is recognised as a really good tattoo (fake ones, of course) artist and is asked by people all over her school to draw a tattoo on them. 

This happened to me in real life! Maybe not as full scale as in Dork Diaries, but nevertheless, it still happened! In one of my recent posts, I showed you a henna design that I was going to do on my hand. Surprisingly, it didn't turn out that bad, and after I came to school, someone asked me if I could do the same design on their hands! I did it with sharpie because who carries around henna to school? In total, I've done this design on like 3 people so far, I wish some more people would ask me though. But still, it doesn't change the fact that I lived through a scene in dork diaries in real life! I also noticed that two other people were inspired by my design and decided to do something similar on their hands, which I thought was really cool! 

Sadly, however, I don't think many people are going to ask me any more because a) I'm not social and b) some people think asking would be rude. Which is why I'm going to go to my friends and ask them if they want it done on their hands as well! If they so no I'll kill them!1!1 I'll maturely respect their decision and go on with eating my sandwich.

Anyway, today we had vaccinations OUT OF NOWHERE and I wasn't even prepared so I was just like, "What...?" Followed by, "You're joking...right?" So I spent a portion of my time in school preparing for and then actually getting a needle stabbed into my arm. Fun times. 

Seriously though, I hate how the nurses tell you they're about to stick the needle in your arm, like they think we assumed that the needle was for drawing with or whatever, like I know that I'm going to be stabbed with that, okay?? You don't need to tell me tHE EXACT SECOND OKAY??

six cruddy hours of our lives

Also known as school, six cruddy hours of our lives are wasted each day as we attempt to fill our brains with meaningless equations and facts that will probably never be of use as soon as we are released into the real world.

It's not that bad though, through all the learning and boring classes, we are given the opportunity to make 'friends' (still don't have any idea what that is) and take part in clubs and other extra-curricular activities, in fact, most of our lives will be spent in high school by the time we graduate, so we might as well make use of the little fun we can have, right?

I've come to realise that if it weren't for school, I would probably never have actual friends. My mum and I were discussing it today, and not surprisingly we have the same kind of attitude when it comes to make friends. For example, when we are in the situation where we have friends with us, we don't hesitate to socialise and have a little laugh, but as soon as they're gone, and we're in a situation much like the..holidays, we don't really make an effort to hang out unless they extend the invitation, or we just want to have some food from a restaurant. I think the latter is probably just mainly me.

Don't get me wrong, I do feel guilty, but honestly, making friends and maintaining the relationship requires so much time and effort that I'd rather just curl up in a ball and watch some tv, with some pizza of course.

Anyway, lately I've been thinking about a phone that I really want to buy. It's the Moto G 2014.

I just love the look and feel of this device, and a plus side is that it's going to be one of the few phones that will be guaranteed an update to Android L when it comes out, which is a BIG bonus. However, I feel like I'm being a little greedy these days so I try to restrain myself from looking at pictures like this. Guess what? It never works. Self Control is something that I have only in certain situations, and this, is not one of them. It's so depressing when the one thing that you love talking and researching about turns out to be an expensive hobby as well. Anyway, I'll feel really proud if I can hold myself until the end of year 8, which is my goal. It's even written on the Internet now, so I'll try my best to reach it. So no more looking at Android L pictures, or anything else related to technology! Okay, maybe just a little bit. But asides from that I am not going to mention anything even related to technology from today. I'll update each post I make from now on with my progress in regards to this goal as well, so it's not I can lie or anything.

Onto another topic! Lately I've gotten into crafts a lot lately, and I'm thinking about decorating my books something like this.

Isn't it just so awesome! I'm going to buy all my materials from ebay, and I shall let you know about my progress once I attempt it! Of course, that's not going to happen until the end of the year, so yeah... I might buy it near the end of the year when everything starts getting discounts and stuff because of a certain celebration... *cough* *cough*

Anyway! I have to go now to study (UGHHHHH), tomorrow is school and cAN YOU JUST HEAR ME CRYING LIKE NOOOO.

Gotta love those Kanye West gifs! Except in my case it's *Monday, not Sunday. Wait.. That means that I get four days of school instead of five!

I'm not even joking when I say that I've realised that just now. 

a day wasted :(

I feel like I wasted today by not doing anything productive, ugh, it's one of the worst feelings ever. I had so many high hopes, but now I feel like literally doing nothing. Anyway, it's the second last day of the school holidays, I might just watch a movie or something, but I doubt there's enough time left. Oh well, at least I know I won't be doing that tomorrow!

It just goes to show that sometimes we may need school to make us do something with our lives, for instance I have a feeling that whenever I'm not in school, I tend to slack off unless I'm not reigned in by the fierce determination of mine to get something done, but even then there are times when I seem to be able to get sidetracked, however with school, the desks, the ever present teachers that seem to share a resemblance with hawks, watching us constantly like we might suddenly plan to blow up the school or something, it's pretty hard to get away with not doing your work.

I honestly cannot wait until the Android L release comes out officially, I know I haven't talked much about technology in this blog, but it honestly plays such a huge role in my interests, you have no idea! If only they didn't cost money.. Sometimes I used to fantasise about everything costing a dollar, but I've since matured and seen the world as it is, such as the only way to get free sauce in Macca's is to order it last minute as you drive away.

Anyway, this is basically pictures of Android L, and some of the things that I like.

I love how android is finally studying about what appeals to people these days, and finally acting on it with such a substantial release, the UI is more colourful, and much more appealing to me as well. I love the 'material design' idea as well, and it's a big step towards something that many phone manufacturers are shying away from. the one thing that really bugs me though is that in the developer preview the stock keyboard is still pretty awful. It just doesn't fit in with the rest of the fancy and vibrant colours and animations. Take a look; 

I don't if it's just me, but the keyboard really does need a major overhaul, they tried with this, but I don't if it's just me, but it looks really..weird. And the keys do not look good either. Sigh, are we ever gonna get at least a decent looking keyboard from android? One that doesn't look like it it's inspiration was the stone age?

One thing I do love, though, is the recent apps design. I am absolutely in love with that, I can just imagine how nice it'll feel to flick through the apps, it'll be pretty cool!

Anyway, that's as much as I can write today, so see you write to you guys later!

term 3 stuffies

My science project from term 3! And yes, my name is potato and I do have purple hands, no quit ya' asking! My science teacher liked it so much, he decided to keep it. #nojoke 

 My maths extension project from term 3, we had to do string art and I made a butterfly! Still awaiting the results from my teacher. :) I love the colour of the string though, it's a beautiful glittery blue.

And there you have it! Some of the news that I have failed to inform you guys about. :D

Henna art!

So this weekend I'm going to be doing some Henna art which is why I decided to practise actually drawing the designs on a piece of paper, hence why I am posting these photos.

I'm horrible at drawing, so please excuse any mistakes. Anyway, I can't wait to actually use these designs tonight!

story time! pt. 1

I've decided to post a few stories that I've previously written, and hopefully you guys like them! I've taken out my old english book with the half torn cover and I'm to post a story that I wrote in there in today's post. I actually won a cadbury chocolate bar for getting first place by writing this story, so yeah. It's in the horror genre and obviously it still needs some work, but I'm posting the unedited version because I'm planning to do something cool on that soon! Anyway, here's the story!

I lay awake in my bed unable to get to sleep, my bed feeling like a brick against my back. It's raining outside and with the sound of the clock in my room ticking back and forth, it's even harder to get to sleep. All of a sudden, I hear faint footsteps outside my door, I stay still, for a few few seconds I am unable to movie, but then I go outside to investigate.

I open the door, and all I see is darkness. I can barely visualise anything around me. Suddenly I feel a tap on my shoulder, my breathing quickens. There no else in this house but me, thousands of possibilities come flowing into mind, but nothing contains the right answer.

I turn around, my arms waving frantically in front of me but I feel nothing. I hear a laugh, more like cackling. This freaks me out even more. I start running, trying to find the light switch but I don't get to find out if I reach it or not because without a moment's hesitance I am being grabbed by two bony fingers.

"Help!" I yell, even though I know no one can hear me. I start to thrash around, but there is no use. My hair gets pulled back and pains sears through my head, a hand clamps my mouth shut, and I want to scream.

Instead I bite down on what seems to be fingers, but they really are as body thought. My teeth begin aching but soon I am let go, I do the first thing that comes to my mind, run.

My body is tired, but I don't give in, I run faster and faster but it feels like a never ending maze to the exit door because I am lost.

The next thing I know, I am being blinded by something bright, my eyes are trying to adjust to the change. I find that the lights in my room are now, but then I see something so harrowing that it makes me wish I was never born.

Standing right before me is this horrid creature, much resembling a skeleton. I don't move. The creature seems to be almost mocking me as it circles my figure, taunting me with it's smile. I want to yell, I want to cry but no words are coming from my mouth.

The creature takes a few steps forward until there is merely a few inches of a gap between us. Then I notice that there's a knife, more like a dagger in it's hand and my blood runs cold.

It smirks, as if understanding what I am thinking about, "Sweet Dreams," it whispers in my ear. And then I feel him plunge his weapon into my chest with a look so disgusting I can only imagine that he's done this so many times before.

Tears pool my eyes, and my vision becomes blurry, I am finding it harder to breathe. I fall to the floor in an instant, and I spot a single rose beside me. It's beauty so magnificent, the total opposite of what has just happened to me.

And then, I close my eyes fore I am no longer in this world any more.

oh no..

It's nearly the end of the school holidays, ugh. I'm slightly excited to see my friends again, but at the same time I'd dreading the fact that we're going to get assignments and homework shoved at our faces as soon as school starts. However, that doesn't necessarily mean I have to go to school.. *cough cough* Wow, I think I won't be able to attend school next week! Oh no! Yeah right, if I did anything like that my mum would be on my case in a millisecond. Plus, I'd have to deal with the fact that instead of taking care of me, my mum would be listing off the reasons why I had gotten sick. I can already imagine it. 1. You're on the computer for too long! 2. You never listen to what I say! 3. You don't eat your vegetables! No thanks! I'd rather jump off a plane!

Anyway, my friend and I are going to hang out tomorrow, well hopefully, I hate it when plans cancel on you in the last minute, so I'm trying to avoid that as much as possible. I also have a confession to make, you may think that I'm going to mall to shop and socialise with my friend, but really I'm just going for the food, and some company so I don't look like loner. I know, I know, it sounds like I'm heartless, but gosh I am craving for some junk food right now. Hopefully I can hang on until tomorrow.

For some reason, the concept of documenting my thoughts and feelings into a blog is quite interesting, especially because one year from now I can look back through this blog and read about my experiences. And also, I had like four other blogs before, but for some reason I deleted them, so now I have to deal with the fact that I'll never be able to read about what happened two years ago again. Although, primary school was 50/50 so it doesn't really matter. But still.. Okay, enough gloating, I've got some stuff to write about! Well, this year has nearly come to and end, I mean there's one term left so I mean that's pretty much the end of the end year, but anyway, I feel like I should write about some of the things that have happened so far,

1. I'm closer to figuring out what kind of a person I am. I'll elaborate, back at the start of the year, I was fresh out of the Primary School factory and was entering my way into the jungle of new memories and experiences that is high school. I didn't quite know what time of a person I was and what made me who I am, but now I have more of an idea of what separates me from other people. And anyway, people didn't really have personalities back in primary school, so that doesn't count, mainly because you're basically what your friends are like. Whereas in high school I have such a wide variety of friends, I've got a friend who's like this ultimate nerd but also likes to have a laugh, I've got this nice and caring friend who always put the people she cares about first, I've got a musical and social friend who randomly bursts into singing a song at random moments, I've got a friend who loves making herself look good yet for some reason doesn't seem conceited to us, her friends, mainly because she has a personality that's good enough to cover that up, and I've also got a friend who adores Tobias from Divergent and will go to all lengths to ensure that her happily ever after features him in it, and also is a soccer fanatic so she's pretty good at that as well (besides looking at theo James pictures online, that is). So yeah, this point is really long but it pretty much sums my first statement up!

2. I've learnt to conquer unknown feelings that I'm less acquainted with. This year I went through a storm of emotions, jealousy, helplessness, excitement, regret, happiness, shock (in a good way), and there's more. But through these ups and downs, I feel like I've identified what makes me react a certain way and have learnt to manage it better so that I don't go all psycho. I've also learnt how to act around my friends, meaning that during the start of the year I didn't quite know how to talk with them or even share my opinions, but now I can, and I know what to say and what not to in certain situations. I've also learnt to accept my feelings and embrace my thoughts because I guess that's pretty much makes up what I am.

3. What types of people to avoid. My high school is no Mean Girls, but it still features elements that aren't necessarily all unicorns and rainbows. Particularly with the way girls act. Now, girls can be so so scary sometimes. Like, the way they talk about people behind their backs is so terrifying. I'll explain why. I've had people talk to me about other people, and let's just they weren't commenting on how good Beth's (a made up name, lol) haircut looked. People talk about their own friends behind their backs. The popular crowd in my school aren't exactly royalty but they're not people who are willing to be hang out with you 24/7 either, they're pretty much in the middle. Available to you if you're desperate enough to try and talk to them. But even then, they'll still leave you in the rubble if they someone who interests them better than you do. Anyway, back to my point. I'm not saying that only popular people do this either, I've witness it first hand with my own friends as well, but that wasn't exactly gossiping. (More on that story later). So, you could be hanging out with somebody, and all of sudden they'll just be like, "ohmigosh, Beth has been so attention-seeking lately, like have you seen the way she talks to me and the others? And those clothes? What was she thinking? And she's so braggy, like I don't mean to talk about people behind their backs, but I feel like she's asking me to with the way that she shoves everything that she owns in people's faces. Like are you a shopping mall? Then why the heck are you shoving pricetags in my face like some damn sales representative?" See what I mean? Like one minute they could be talking to you about Beth, and the next they could be talking to Beth about YOU. You see what I mean? You can never trust people completely. Especially in school. I've had quite a number of moments when people start trying to get a response from me by talking about a certain person, aka. Forcing me to gossip. For example, "Hey, don't you think that Beth can be a bit controlling at times?" In this case, they could either be genuinely asking you if you've been having the same problem, and wanting advice on how to deal with it. Which would be fine, because then Beth would be the bad person here because she's hurting her friend's feelings. But the person talking to you could also be working for the enemy and is trying to find some intel to report back to her team, aka Beth. So that's why it's best to act neutral. So,"Oh, I don't know. I mean, I've never witnessed it." Will hopefully put an end to that discussion because there's no fire to fuel. Being a victim of these cases back in primary school, I can definitely say I have learnt from my mistakes.

Anyway, that's all for today's post. I'll have some points up later. Hopefully you'll enjoy some extra info from my life! Bye!