be prepared

Let me just say one thing before you read any further,

This post is going to be a big hot mess.

Now that we've acknowledged that, let's get shall to business shall we? We shall. Sorry, I literally just woke up half an hour and let's just say that I pretty much woke up, walked across the room, picked up my laptop and went straight back to bed. So if you're reading this right now, and I sound like a ripped up dictionary with all my words flying everywhere, now you'll know why.

The first thing that I had prepared for today (yeah, I list the things I want to talk about, sue me) was talking about a new series that I think I've fallen in love with. Actually, I know I've fallen in love with it. I knew I said that no series could ever come close to The Lying Game but let me tell you, this series is awesome on a whole 'nother level. In fact, both series are perfection in their own right, so TLG is still pretty high up on the scale.

It's called Angelfall. *insert dramatic music*

The book is amazing. The main character is funny, sassy and sarcastic, and I feel that a lot of books lack that nowadays. Reading about the post apocalyptic gore, and other icky stuff can make me feel queasy at times, but it's her sense of humour that somehow whisked me away from all that kind of stuff and let me focus on the task at hand.

The second book is called World After.

aka the second time I fell in love again.

Susan Ee is an amazing writer, and the sequencing of the story, the pace, and the amount of detail put into each event was evident. I legit couldn't put the book down. The next book in the series is set to be publish on May 12 this year, and I cAN'T WAIT. THAT'S FIVE DAYS BEFORE MY BIRTHDAY! I don't even need any presents, reading End of Days will suffice.

excuse me i need a moment to breathe

There's an app in the app store called GIFs and it's basically a Gif Keyboard and I'm so jealous because there's isn't one in the play store aND DO YOU FEEL MY PAIN?!? At least all the apps are getting huge makeovers because of Android Lollipop. It's quite interesting really, so how they incorporate material design into each logo. 

Sorry, I'm just obsessed with technology.

Moving on.

You know when you read a book, and you just love and you read it as you fall asleep and your whole life revolves around that book because it's the special? #legomoviereference 

Anyway.

But then, thunder strikes and you pick up that very book later on in your life and you cringe and your heart starts beating fast because how could you EVER like that book?

Yeah, well, that's what happened to me a short time ago. 

The main character, who I was thought I could relate to, is a whiny little brat who I wish I could just beat with an umbrella. She's selfish, and she hardly ever takes the sacrifices her parents make for her into consideration. Instead, she gloats about the one thing that her parents can't do for her, and guess what, RUNS AWAY. This happens in the third book, Model Misfit and gosh,

There were so many moments when I would just wonder, why aren't the parents doing anything? I mean, she is an only child, but her step mom has a child, so now she has a sister, and the parents are always so tired just to make things work out, and she doesn't even think about that. Not even for one second. She just storms off, slams the door to her room, and expects them to be the ones to apologies.

Honey, if that were me, and I did what you just did, I would be in so much trouble. And I'm certain that so many other people would as well. And you'd think, that that the girl's about 13 or 14 but NO. She turning 17 in a few days and she's still acting like a 3 year old! The only difference is that she ain't wearing a diaper, but I'm still a little uncertain about that.

On to another topic.

Me being me, I decided to see if I could possible catch a glimpse of my year 8 timetable, 

It didn't work.

The website that I used to view last year's timetable kept on saying, "View 2014 version." So that either means that the year 8 timetables for people haven't been finalised or they forgot I went to the school and did everyone else's. I'm hoping it's the latter.

At least I'll have something interesting to blog about.

And that, my friends, is how a blogger's mind works. 

But I'm a little peeved to be honest. Apparently, people who chose to do maths extension won't get any electives this year. To top that off, we don't have any lockers, and trying to my PE uniform inside my bag is a hassle itself! My school bag end up being super heavy, and who knows what damage that's doing to my body! I'm telling you, any medical bills I'm getting are going straight to the principal. 

Anyway, there are bunch of things that I'm excited for in 2015. Such as tech advancements, which I'm super super excited for. But all in all, I'm just going to let this year...flow, the way it wants to flow. 

After all, it's not like I would be able to plan seeing Tim from BB in a mall right? I swear he's not even that famous anymore. I should have been all, "Wow, you look really familiar.." to him and watched his reaction, and then make it into a gif and use it in one of my posts.

yes. YES.

I wanted to make this post have a happier vibe than my last post, which I'm kind of scared to read again because it's basically my 2 am thoughts written on paper. Well, you get what I mean.

Hey, but imagine if there was a delete button for the internet?

what will i be like in the future?

In today's post, as suggested by the title, I have decided to talk about some of my personal fears and questions about, well, the future.

I think that at least one point in our lives, we ask ourselves this very question, "What will I be like in the future?" In fact, it is this question that is capable of drawing out madness and insanity from anyone. Everyone has different reasons for asking this question, but not everyone wants to hear the answer. But there is always one key factor that drives us to wonder this over and over again; curiosity.

There are so many other questions about life itself that can make us feel helpless just thinking about them, such as, "What is the meaning of life?" or, "What happens after we die?". Perhaps it's the mere fear of thinking about these things that leads us to distract ourselves by doing things we know we'll regret.

For instance, I could really like a book this year, but who's to say that I will next year? What if my interests change, and I'm no longer the person I am at this current moment? It scares me to think even for a second that I won't enjoy doing the things I am now, and will become a completely different person. In the end, I know it's my choice whether or not I like something, but to think of another me a year from now, or even in ten years is like thinking of another person altogether. I know I've changed drastically from the person I was last year, but I'm happy with the changes. What if I'm not happy with myself next year?

I don't know why, but lately I've been thinking about these questions. A lot. Even to the point where I envision myself as a different person, and wonder about whether or not I would approve of her one year from now. I kind of understand this feeling, because I associated it with the transition from 2014 to 2015. Everyone assumes that they'll have their life in check, they'll work on their resolutions, and just be a better person overall. But really, you're just waking up to a new day, that just happens to be in 2015. You're still the same person, you're still doing the same thing. So it's not like you suddenly just transformed into this person who has everything planned and in control, right?

So why is it, that even after knowing all this, I still continue to think about what I'll be like in the future? After all, it is up to me, right?

My goal for 2015 isn't to accomplish any resolutions (I didn't make one anyway) it's for it to be amazing, and I ain't gonna let nobody ruin this year for me.

Because you know that feeling when you don't do something, and then after much convincing you finally accomplish doing it, and how you immediately feel so happy you could burst, because you hung on, even though everything was telling you to let go?

That's what I want 2015 to be like. That's all. I just want to be happy.

 That's all life is. Breathing in, breathing out. The space between two breaths. 

...and I intend to make every moment of it count.

woke up like dis

From the moment I woke this morning, I felt really calm and nice. I don't know what it was but I had a feeling that today was going to be a good day. So far nothing horrible has happened, apart from me looking in the mirror (that was terrifying) so fingers crossed that the whole day remains this way.

I want to make some really exciting posts, but so far nothing exciting has really happened. I kind of want aliens to abduct me just so I can blog about. Do you this aliens have wifi in their UFOs? These are the real questions we should be asking.

If you guys have read this blog for a while (I really don't know if anyone does) you'd know that I am a massive tech enthusiast. Part of me wants to make a YouTube account solely related to tech stuff where I can try and review the newest devices, but that would require money. And let's face it, I ain't gonna be able to afford some iphone 6 to review! I barely have enough money to go the movies, let alone buy expensive stuff! And hello, if you're reading this blog we all know that you're in the same boat, so let's not be judgmental here, okay? Also, I am such a procrastinator. I mean, if I was going to have lunch with the president at two, chances are I'm going to wait till ten minutes before until I actually bother to get dressed. That's just me. I probably wouldn't even upload videos for a whole month, and then wonder why no is subscribing to my channel.

I'm currently looking at cydia tweaks, and even though I don't have an iPhone or any apple related product, anymore, (I gave my iPod to my brother) the videos are still pretty interesting. And who knows, maybe I will have an iPhone some day and be able to jailbreak it!

Ha. Let's not get ahead of ourselves, shall we?

Honestly, sometimes I just want to yell at people who destroy their phones or whatever on YouTube for 'research purposes' and I basically die a little every time they destroy the beautiful iPhone 6, but it's not my money so I can't really judge.

But seriously, just stop.

i'm so lazy

I totally forgot about uploading yesterday, it pretty much slipped my mind. But to be fair, I had to fix my string art project since someone, I'm not going to be naming names or anything...
*cough* oneofmybrothers *cough* wrecked it while I was asleep. Not to mention, I had to search for some more string because I didn't have enough to re do it. Plus, the string that was available was tangled...

Sorry, I couldn't help it.

Basically, I had to spend half an hour trying to untangle it, which pretty much equated to me giving up and using some string that I was trying to save,

#stringartproblems.

Anyway, yesterday wasn't really different from any other day. To be honest, I kind of expected everything to be spectacular, and have people throw parties on the street, but nothing like that happened. Probably because they're all tired from staying up so late for New Years. I wouldn't be surprised. I texted all of my friends at 12 AM in the morning, and most of them replied. Most.

Today was no different, I woke up at 10 AM, and proceeded life as normal. I reeeaaallllyyy don't want school to start soon, especially since I'm quite enjoying this holiday spirit. But hey, you can't everything in life, right? Just slave away at a desk for more than 12 years of your life, and then after that do the same, only in University, and then eventually, have that happen to you in your job. There's really no escaping is there?

BUT THIS IS MY FIRST POST OF 2015!

I just can't believe it's 2015 and there's still no flying cars. 

I mean, if there were, I would definitely be able to afford it. Ha. Ha. Ha...

It's a catchy song, alright?

So that's all I have for today, sorry if it wasn't very exciting. I'm kind of running out of things to talk about, and plus I don't think you people want to hear about what I ate for breakfast.

it's been a crazy, hectic, year

It's the 31st of December.

And you know what that means....

Eating nutella and regretting my life decisions! Nah, not really, This year has been pretty much, in one word; awesome. Starting high school has been life changing, it's opened up and offered me so many new opportunities, friends and not to mention experiences I'll remember years to come. In fact, just a few minutes ago I pranked my brother into thinking I was controlling his computer. He though it was a hacker at first, and was literally freaking out, I wanted to continue the prank for a few more days but I felt so bad I just had to end it.

this was him during the prank

this was him after I confessed

Asides from this major highlight in my life, which is being able to successfully prank my brother (asides from the unfortunate fact that I forgot to take a video of it) there's a lot of things that I've had happen to me this year, both highs and lows that I;ll take as a learning opportunity in preparation for year 8. 

During this break I played GTA: San Andreas, and also finished the game. The ending credits nearly made me tear up. Apart from that, there were plenty of instances in school and out when I felt like doing just that, except for the opposite reasons. If you people even bother reading my blog, you'd know that the may-july time period was definitely one of my darkest moments of this year. I struggled to keep up with homework, assignments, this resulted in me being really moody and always lashing out at my family. I'm not proud of the fact that these things happened, I'm proud that I was able to improve. And that, is one of my biggest accomplishments this year. 

Science was one of the subjects that I had to get used to as I was pretty clueless when it came to everything related to it, don't get me wrong, I still get puzzled over scientific things, just not as much as the start of the year. It's a pretty embarrassing thing to admit since I want to be a doctor when I grow up, but oh well, what can you do. *Mum Voice* "Probably study harder and stop spending so much time on your laptop!" 

Anyway.

I got surprisingly good results for science in my report card, and because of that I am SO HAPPY. I thought I was lucky just to be able to get an 'A' but no, there was more to come! I am so grateful because of this reason, and countless others, but this achievement (bringing my science grade up from a B to an A) is something I will always cherish whenever I feel down or uninspired to improve. Newsflash; It's possible. I have proof. 

Besides that, there are other things that have given me the chance to improve, but the number one thing that I've learnt is to just enjoy yourself. Trust me, one year from now, things that seemed to complicated will turn out to have simply been mere speed bumps in your journey of life. 

did i really just write that

Of course there are some things that I wish I could change, but the fact is; you can't. So until you grow up and learn to accept that, you won't be able to move forward. It will destroy you.

#realtalk #cantbelieveijustusedahastag

Wow, my blogging skills are just amazing.

I want to remember this year as life changing, and in all honesty. It was. It was everything that I could have asked for and more. It was inspirational. It was hopelessness. It was emotions flying everywhere. It was me discovering who I am, one step at a time.  Smiles, tears, laughs, cries, they all contributed to making this year epic. 

My life isn't some picture perfect fairy tale, nor is it some posh hollywood lifestyle. But the important thing to remember is that it's mine. So many people don't even get the chance to enjoy their life. I think that's a big thing to remember, It's hard, there'll be times when you feel like letting go, but it's your life. You have the opportunity to help someone in need. You have the chance to break free of the whatever is holding you down. You can do anything you want. You. 

Now, I don't intend this to be some sentimental post about believing in yourself, but I do think this should be about being happy. As this year ends, another will start. The world won't stop spinning for you, so don't do the same for it. I know for sure that I'm going to do everything I possible can to make 2015 amazing. I won't hold back. Every day is a blessing that countless people don't have the chance to experience, so remember that when you're sad. I will.

Gosh, I sound so cheesy. But like I said, now's the perfect to be cheesy than any other. You can use 2015 as an opportunity to do wonderful things, or quite the opposite. It's your decision.

So make your choices count. 

Goodbye 2014!

school more like no

exclusive footage of me exiting the school

So school ended.

And basically I'm going ballistic because of all the new opportunities that I can finally take advantage of during the holidays. I can't wait to just wake up at 10 in the morning and not have to instantly regret not setting my alarm. Not to mention all the things I'll be able to do instead of idly blinking in a desk in front of the teacher. And no studying!! How great is that? I'll finally be able to relax and not constantly check my diary every five minutes to finish all my homework. Also, the cover of my diary was starting to fall apart, it's kind of sad, really. Just like when my umbrella was absolutely trashed because of a really windy day, and Mr Z came into the Geography room and looked it and said, "Wow, that's the saddest umbrella I've ever seen." Followed by inevitable question, "Who's is it?" Which led to nearly the whole class looking at me, and me slowly sinking into the hole of embarrassment that had just opened up on the ground. 

Asides from that, I wanted to talk about my day in this post. so that's exactly what I intend on doing. Starting from the very start of school. 

MY VERY DETAILED(?) RECOUNT

The day started off with me being late to school, topped off with the fact that I basically had no idea where to go, I was in big trouble. However, everything was okay again when I noticed my friend. I was so relieved when I saw her, and she told me that we basically had to go to our first period of the day. She also happened to mention that I would be receiving an official award in the MPU, along with the all the people in my friend circle. I was ecstatic.

So, I entered the classroom, and the teacher totally forgot about us! After 20 minutes, my friend and I had to go and tell her, and she was just like, "Oh, I though it was Thursday!" This led to us being one of the last classes to make it to MPU, where we were told to bring a gold coin donation. I, being the idiot I am, didn't realise you didn't have to donate, so I hurriedly rushed to classroom to get my money. By the time I came back, everyone in the MPU was seated and singing the national anthem. 

I had to ask one of the teachers where I should sit, because I was receiving an award, and he told me to sit on one of the seats in the front. But, since the seating was meant to be in alphabetical order, I was in the wrong seat and far, far away from where I was supposed to be sitting. 15 minutes and tons of panic later, I finally got the opportunity to slip past people and sit in my allocated spot. 

Then, I had to quickly rush to receive my award, and sit back down in my seat. After that, I was able to relax and actually discover what awards I had been given. Geography and Science! I was so excited, I'm still really really happy, especially since I consider Science to be one of my worst subjects. But hey, if my teacher's happy I'm happy! 

The following hour (it felt like it) was spent clapping for other people, and listening to them getting awards. As you can tell, it got a little tiring after a while. I basically wanted to this. 

except in this case i would have awards in my hand

So that was that.

When all of that ended, I got to enjoy festivus, and eat all the food I could possible want. I bought tons of jewelry, such as bracelets and necklaces, and I'm wearing one of them right now. It's this really pretty butterfly one. My friends also gave me some pressies for the end of the year, and one of the most interesting things I got was a pedicure/manicure set. I've never actually used one before, so it'll be interesting to see how this one goes. One of my friends gave me chocolate aND IT WAS SO DELICIOUS!!  

Anyway, there was loads of music playing, and performances, but the definite highlight of the day was the sumo wrestling match between numerous teachers. It was hilarious to watch. 

Towards the end of the day, everyone started packing up, and were getting ready to receive the school reports, I was extremely nervous for them because I felt like I would do horrible. The suspense was of pure agony in the MPU as people hesitantly waited for their report. As soon I got mine, my heart immediately started to speed up. It was pretty much my soundtrack as I read through my report. But nervousness quickly turned to happiness as I found out that I did pretty damn well! The only mark that wasn't as good as I wanted it to be was PDHPE, but I don't really care about that, so let's just forget about it being an actual subject for the time being. I got an A for science!!!!! I accomplished one of my main goals for the year! Compared to the last two terms, my report for this term is something I am really proud of. My mum was happy with it as well, particularly the one for science. 

All in all, this year has been in one word; awesome. I've met so many lovely people, and without them my experiences of this year would simply not be the same. I've learnt so many new things, and have definitely matured as a person. I can can't wait for being in Year 8 next year, and not be referred to as a 'sevvie' anymore. 

I wouldn't change one thing for this year, and I know that;

All the despair, happiness and hope has led to this moment. And I can say that I am proud of who I have become, as always there is room for improvement, but for now I am grateful for the things that have happened this because without them I would not be the same person I am today. It sounds really cheesy, I know, yet it's the truth.

So as I bid this school year adieu, I leave you with one of my favourite lines from a song that I heard today. 

mockingjay

I kind of forgot to mention that I watched Mockingjay on Friday from school. Oh, the privileges of being in book club. 

Mockingjay definitely exceeded my expectations. It was downright amazing. The music, the pacing, and pretty much everything else worked seamlessly together to provide an awesome viewing experience. I still can't get over Jennifer Lawrence singing Hanging Tree in the movie. It was moving. In fact, even the credits had this slow paced song by Lorde that only seemed to emphasize the events that had just happened.

Sure, it was just Part 1. But I've gotta say, I am super excited to watch Part 2 next year. Especially since this movie was bomb. I wouldn't change one thing. Just thinking about the movie is getting me excited, Mockingjay Part 1 had everything that I wanted and more. I remember being so immersed in the movie that I would just lean forward to experience every moment of it, but I think it was from the moment that Katniss agreed to be the Mockingjay that I truly felt the greatness of the movie,

Anyway, that was just my short post for today. We're going to Jamberoo sometime next week. I can't wait! Especially since one of my friends who thought she wouldn't be able to go, is able to go now! We had this swim test last week, and everyone was so nervous for it, including me. I passed, however it was a bittersweet moment since my friend couldn't make it. But it's all good now since there's going to be another one for the people who couldn't make it, so I guess she's happy about that as well.

...and then after that it's the holidays! Whoo!

the crying game

The title pretty much sums up my whole day, to be honest. If you've read my previous post, you'd know that I've recently been obsessed with this series called The Lying Game by Sara Shepard. It's literally perfection.  

Anyway, so I was reading the last book of the series, which is called Seven Minutes in Heaven and this was me as I was reading it

This was me at the start

This was me halfway through

...and this was me as I finished it

I've gotta say, I definitely do not regret all those hours I put into reading it, because this series was amazing. It's been a while since I've read such a great series, and I'm especially referring to two of my all-time favourite series, both by the same author. The Mediator, and The Princess Diaries by Meg Cabot. 

I couldn't believe the ending of this series though! I didn't expect it at all! Well, I did have a sneaking suspicion but I always never guess the killer in shows like NCIS or anything, so I didn't exactly think I would be right! I'm just glad that no one spoiled the ending for me, as someone who's had that done to me before, I know about the grieving process that comes afterwards, so please, anyone who's reading this, NEVER EVER SPOIL THE ENDING OF A BOOK SOMEONE IS READING! 

I can't emphasize this enough, I mean, if anyone spoiled TLG for me I would probably straight-up punch them!

Anyway, I want this post solely to be about TLG because it deserves it, but just on a quick, unrelated note, school end next week on Wednesday! (I literally had to say Wed-nes-day while writing that, btw,) I can't believe that! 

Now all the blood, sweat and tears actually seem worth it! Anywho, I hope you guys like this post, and the gifs as well! #twopostsinaday #proudofmyself

#bye

i'm on a roller coaster that only goes up, my friend

I know, I used a TFIOS quote. Sue me. I just can't believe that I managed to survive high school, and discover so many things about myself at the same time. One thing I can believe, though, is the fact that it's already this time of the year. I can easily say how many days I've felt like not wanting to get out bed, pulling late-nighters to finish assessments, not to mention the countless times when I've literally just felt like rolling into one corner of my room and crying. Which is why, I am not surprised it's December. Along with all the cheery decorations, this time of the year is also jampacked full of sales, and that is specifically why I will not hesitate in doing all the shopping I can with my friends.

It's not a big surprise that I didn't exactly start the year in the greatest way possible, honestly, the time around may-july, was probably the darkest moments of my life. The reason being that it was already the middle of the year, and there were so many assignments and ridiculous tests just waiting to be the death of me. Thankfully, I've survived since then, and have made a gazillion note-to-selfs, which I'm planning to write a book about, because come on, that would be awesome.

This is it guys, this is my big break. I think I'm ready to go global. This book would a phenomenon. Imagine how many people would be helped by this! I know there'd definitely be a lot of things I'd put in here for sure. I can't begin to tell you how many times I've gotten in trouble, and out of it by using my wits. I think I've definitely changed from the start of the year to now, I know what to say, and people, especially some, know that I won't take any of their lazy bottom attitude. And besides, I'm going to be dealing with these people for a long time, might as well tell them to shup up, right?!?

Anyway, I've gotten really obsessed with two book series so far. The first one because, well, I know it sounds so bad, and I know people get really annoyed and think that when people do this they aren't "true fans" of the book and are reading it just because of the publicity it's getting, which is kind of the truth, but still. Basically, what it is that I'm trying to say is that one of the series that I'm currently reading right now is called The Giver. It is awesome, to say the least. I actually cried during reading it, and I received a lot of weird looks from my friends when I told them this. But I mean, they also did the exact same thing when I told that I hadn't cried while reading/watching TFIOS, so they're not exactly the most accurate judges in this context.

The one on the right is the cover of the book I was reading. Honestly, this book is perfection. It raises so many questions, so many 'what-ifs?' and definitely follows through on them, I didn't think I would like it, but was left with so may different emotions. The prime one being fascination. I think the POV was perfect for this book, and thus, I recently just borrowed the next book, "Gathering Blue" to find out what happens next. I'm pretty excited, to say the least.

I also am hooked on another series, and it's 'The Lying Game' series. Which is perfection. Since it was kind of a Pretty Little Liars type of book, I pretty much just burrowed the book to see how cliche and bad it was, but as soon as I read the first book, which was a week ago, I have been obsessed with the characters, the plot, the writing, and pretty much everything in between.

So far I've read the first few books, I finished the 2nd and 3rd book yesterday, along with the giver, and started+finished the 4th book today. This week was a hectic week for me, and I haven't even finished my Geography homework, (they've already written our reports, who cares?!?), but I mean, it's been a lot time since I've read a book like this and genuinely enjoyed it. I'm going to see if I can burrow the other by the of next week, but if I can't then I'll probably see if my local library has an ebook or something I could get.

I'm also starting Gathering Blue today, the sequel to The Giver, and I'm literally so excited.

I also brought home my metal work projects, I made a heart and flower, and I'm so happy with the way that they turned out. They're look awesome! This was me when I saw them two together. Meaning my two projects.

Anyway, I gotta go now, so I'll leave you guys with one last thought before you reach the end of this post.

I know this was a long post, but I didn't want like 50 words on how my day went or something, because that would be so boring to read.

just chilin'

So, I've kind of acknowledged the fact that my sorry attempts at posts for this month will probably not suffice in the long run...which is why I have decided to make another post. *gasp!* I feel like I've procrastinated doing this for a while so I was just like, "Today is the day you're going to change the world!" Hence, why I made this blog post.

A lot has happened since my last update, I've watched tons of YouTube videos, and I mean, a lot, DIY'ed one of my books, nearly finished my metal work project, finished all of my assignments, (except for one english trailer for Jane Eyre, grrr) and now I'm just relaxing and letting the roller coaster of life take me where it pleases. Basically, I'm hanging on a thread until the end of school. I bough loads of DIY stuff for the holidays, which is a little over two weeks away! Not to mention, I'm going to a water park and I haven't been to one is soooooo long, so I'm really excited.

My brother is right next to me, reading my what I'm writing and mocking me as I do so, which is why I'm annoyed as of now. One of the things that I really want to know how to do, is sew because how cool would it be to wear an awesome dress and have people ask you where you got it, and then imagine the surprised looks on their faces when they hear you say, "Oh this? I made it." (Just quoted a line from one of Bethany Mota's vids).

Personally, I think she's overrated because the quality of her DIY's are just horrible, but hey, that's probably because she mainly focuses on other things!

A massive thing happened recently at our school, and it's been 'the talk' for quite some time, but I mean, I really don't know what to say about it. I know I didn't expect at all, so I'm quite certain that this mirrors the feelings of other people in my year group as well. It's just, what a weird way to end my first year of high school, right?

Anyway, I have to go now, catch ya later! (Ugh, that sounded so kindergartenish)

i just realised...

I'm sorry.

I couldn't keep my promise.

I brought something on ebay.

I couldn't help it!

I mean, come one, who can say no to washi tape and dry erase sheets? They're amazing! I feel like applauding the person who made washi tape because it's officially one of my favourite arts and craft materials.

Anyway, this was a short post, but I mean, I'm sort of in a hurry, sorry!!!!

!!!!!!!!!(don't you hate it when people use exclamation marks too much?????)!!!!!!!!

happy november!

It's been a while, and so much has happened.

First of all, I'm actually getting decent marks for my Science tests these days, which is awesome!
Secondly, I got full marks in my latest french exam, which only 4 people in the whole class got, which is surprising because French is the last language I'm thinking about studying next year.
And third, our English teacher has mysteriously disappeared (ooooh) which is a great way to end the year! (Note the sarcasm.)

I'm working on making a flower in metal work, and all I have left is spray painting, look forward to a picture in one of my future posts! I'm also so happy that this year is nearly over, it's been hectic (it stil is, btw), and I feel like the holidays will definitely give me some time to cool off and decorate my books! It's kind of like how I decorated my Science book, I'll post a picture to show you guys!

Anyway, this year was so fun, I got some great new friends, and they're all so supporting and cool! Everyone in my class knows I'm the go-to gal for tech related stuff, which is the best because it's one of the things I'm passionate about.

I don't actually know what else to write here, buT I CANT WAIT FOR END OF YEAR SALES! I'm going to go on a MASSIVE shopping spree with my friends, and I'm even thinking of hosting a sleepover!

OKAY BYE

'cause I'm happy!

Clap along if you feel that happiness is the truth!

Anywho, as you can tell I am extremely happy because of my dichotmous keys poster! Yesterday I was in science class and people were like asking for their marks and he said that he didn't know, but then he said,"Oh, I think I gave out a 20 out of 20, yeah, I'm pretty sure I did." And then this girl was all, "Who was it?" And my science teacher turned to me and said my name! Squee! I'm so happy! (You could probably already tell from the title, though) My day has also been good today because we got to start filming out Maths related video for maths extension! One of my friends said that I was pretty good script reader, and I don't know how you're supposed to accept compliments so I was all flustered and embarrassed, but I felt really honoured inside!

I also received my nail art supplies in the mail today, and that was definitely a bonus, because now I get to practise cute designs on my nails, yay! Now, I don't even know if anyone even reads this blog, I'm pretty sure it's just me. But if there happens to be some alien from out of space reading this, or even a human being (gasp!) then welcome! As you can tell, I mainly just write for myself, so I can keep track of my life and what's going on, mainly. I don't tell anyone else about my blog, because that would be weird, and I really don't like the idea of people in my school reading this because that'd just be weird. Instead, I prefer the idea of total strangers from the other side of the world reading in on my innermost thoughts and feeling!

Anyway, that's all I have time for today. I have to start making study notes for yet another science test I have (surprise, surprise!) and I also have to edit the video clips that we took today, so yeah...

sleep *insert love heart*

You know you gotten older when you actually start to value your sleep, and that is something that is happening to me a A LOT this year. Through language tests, and science exams, somehow I've managed to acquire a deep love for sleep, which, to be exact, can be pretty damn bad when you're forced to stay up to 3 AM in the morning finishing up that one essay "You thought you could do the night before." However, it does go both ways, and nowadays I've found myself managing time better just so experience that extra hour of sleep, and yes, it may not seem so special to others, but accomplishing this great feat is pretty much my goal every single day. I'm pretty sure teenagers all over the world are nodding their heads to this one.

So, because I've managed to survive week two of term 4, I've decided to honour this momentous occasion by continuing the list of things I've learnt this year in my last post. So here goes!

4. One of the most valuable lessons I've learnt this year is to not overthink things. I can't tell you enough scenarios where I would completely destroy a happy moment by thinking about things that weren't necessary! This would result in a drastic mood turn and the constant paranoia that something bad was going to happen. Basically, I couldn't be happy without instantly thinking about the negatives of that particular scenario. I think that this habit of mine really peaked when I had a bunch assignment due and I completely did not know what to do, this was probably around May-June, and I remember feeling so down and tired, I felt helpless. It definitely didn't help that I was having friendship issues as well, in fact, I think that's one of the things that would provoke these constant panic attacks. Boy, am I happy to be here now, in a completely different mindset! Back last year, I was a pretty positive person, but I think that the transition from primary school to high school completely jumbled my thinking in the way that I had totally lost my sense of personality, but thankfully that isn't the case anymore.

5. How to manage time better, is one of things that I really struggled with at the start of the year, and even now I'm still paying for my mistakes. But I've come to accept that the past can't be changed, and because of that I deal with cases where I am swamped with homework and assignments way better than I did in the start of the year. Right now as I write this, I'm looking back to those days where I would just look at the things I had to do, and just say that I would "do it later", as you're probably thinking, that almost never resulted me in actually getting my work done, but these days I am a better time manager and I think that I handle days where we get a lot of homework quite well.

6. This point was very hard to think of, but I think the fact that I've discovered how to be a more optimistic person definitely fits this place. Nowadays, if I come back from school feeling down in the dumps because of something such as a bad mark, or an ill remark that I may have accidentally uttered, I come home with a better mindset in general. I immediately take out the positives of the situation and look forward to the next time where I can handle situations that led me to be unhappy in the first place, better. This week, I experienced a moment where I was completely caught off guard and said some things I normally wouldn't have said. But the thing is, I'm not ashamed to admit it because I know that now that I have gone through this moment, I'll try to avoid others like that in the future, and besides, it's not like anyone actually pays close detail to what you say and don't say, so I can definitely start anew next week! I'm looking forward to helping people as much as possible, and taking a stand when things aren't right! All in all, I've started to take regrets as learning experiences in hopes of a better turnout of scenarios like this in the near future!

7. I've decided to throw in one bonus point, and that's about taking a stand. I think when you're in certain situations, you react differently to things, but one thing that should remain solid throughout is your reaction when you see injustice. Take a stand. I don't know why it took me so long to become confident enough to stand up for people's rights, but I'm glad I have finally. Yes, I'm no Nelson Mandela, but I feel like in terms of school I know when or when not to stand up for other people. I think this is a big step from what I was like last year, basically I would let people walk over me if it meant that I wouldn't be targeted. But that's changed. You know the saying, out with the old, and in with the new, and that's my new motto for my reaction to injustice. I'm not going to take it. I genuinely don't care if the person that bullies or says something that they shouldn't hates me forever, but I won't let someone else get hurt by someone else's actions, and I will try to do something about it. However, I'm not going on a "anti-bullying" spree and just attack anyone who says an ill mannered remark, because I'm going to assess the situation beforehand and see if my comments are actually needed, because I don't want some psycho dude coming after me, that'd just be  stupid. Instead, I will just try and take the victim away from that scenario if I see that a remark by me is going to backfire in a really, really, bad way.

So there you have it! Some other things that I've learnt this, hope you enjoyed reading this post, because I definitely enjoyed writing! It just allowed me to become deeper with myself.

the block :(

So my latest traumatic experience (I have a lot! JK) occurred right at the moment I was watching this reality tv show called the block, as you've probably assumed from the title. It was so sad how how two of the four couples got 10,000 dollars, and one of them was lucky  to get 40,000. They worked so hard for more than 10 weeks, and all they get is a measly 10k! And the couple that everyone was betting would get the least money for their apartment actually got more than 300k!

I feel so sorry for the people who were betting that Max and Karstan would win, because now they've pretty much just lost their money, but hey, betting isn't that certain in the first place anyway, so if you ask me, they had it coming.

Anyway, I'm going pretty well with both of my goals, if you need to be reminded again one of them was to not utter a single word about needing a new phone, and the other one was not, umm, oh yeah! It was not buying anything from ebay. So far, it's going quite well, and I'm not having much trouble. I do have to restrain myself sometimes though.

I have to bid you adieu now though, as a horrible creature named homework is calling my name, mainly my Japanese study notes which I haven't even started memorising yet, and my Dichotmous Keys posters which I haven't finished yet, and are actually due on Friday. Word of warning, I might not be able to post as much, this week and the next few weeks are going to be really hectic, so yeah!

the weekend!

It's the weekend, yet I'm confined to four walls of my bedroom, being forced to do no other than..homework. Oh, what a cruel world we live in. Stuck between actually getting my homework complete or blogging about recent events, I chose the latter. Why? Because, why not? Anyway, there's not much to blog about, other than the fact that I nearly had a relapse with my ebay addiction, particularly with this item.

Yeah, I know, I know, another nail product? Well, in my defence, it seems pretty interesting and I don't actually have something like it, sooo, yeah.  Anyway, that's all I have time for today, but I shall be back! Probably around next month! Most likely in the next few days!

my addiction..

I think it's time to open up tell you guys about something that I'm dealing with, it's not really what you'd call 'easy' for me to open up like this, but I feel like you guys decide to know about it. My addiction. I, have developed an addiction over...ebay. Yes, when I'm not shopping for actual stuff I'm looking online for potential items to buy. Okay, maybe that was a bit of an exaggeration, but within the past month I think I've bought more than 10 things on that site, which, for me, is a lot. I bought a couple of watches on there, and I've received compliments on them, but I really think I should scale down the amount of purchases I make on that site. So today, I've decided, that after this month, along with my other goal (which is not mentioning about needing a new phone to my parents) I am going to stop buying things on ebay except if I absolutely need to. Today I bought a couple of nail art brushes, and I'm already feeling quite guilty about that, so after I receive my items I'm not going to buy one single thing on ebay. And that's that.

If you look really closely, there's a face in that. Anyway, that's my perception of ebay!

Unfortunately, I have to go and continue on with my dichotmous key, which is based on superheroes. Yeah, I know right? It was one of my brothers who gave me the inspiration to go along with the whole superhero idea. I was pretty nervous at first, but after telling my friends about my idea they really liked it so I was like, "Why not?". So that is my short story on how I started a superhero themed dichotomous key, which features approximately 20 superheroes. I'm really just hoping I don't get any of the facts wrong. That would be horrible!