story time! pt. 1

I've decided to post a few stories that I've previously written, and hopefully you guys like them! I've taken out my old english book with the half torn cover and I'm to post a story that I wrote in there in today's post. I actually won a cadbury chocolate bar for getting first place by writing this story, so yeah. It's in the horror genre and obviously it still needs some work, but I'm posting the unedited version because I'm planning to do something cool on that soon! Anyway, here's the story!

I lay awake in my bed unable to get to sleep, my bed feeling like a brick against my back. It's raining outside and with the sound of the clock in my room ticking back and forth, it's even harder to get to sleep. All of a sudden, I hear faint footsteps outside my door, I stay still, for a few few seconds I am unable to movie, but then I go outside to investigate.

I open the door, and all I see is darkness. I can barely visualise anything around me. Suddenly I feel a tap on my shoulder, my breathing quickens. There no else in this house but me, thousands of possibilities come flowing into mind, but nothing contains the right answer.

I turn around, my arms waving frantically in front of me but I feel nothing. I hear a laugh, more like cackling. This freaks me out even more. I start running, trying to find the light switch but I don't get to find out if I reach it or not because without a moment's hesitance I am being grabbed by two bony fingers.

"Help!" I yell, even though I know no one can hear me. I start to thrash around, but there is no use. My hair gets pulled back and pains sears through my head, a hand clamps my mouth shut, and I want to scream.

Instead I bite down on what seems to be fingers, but they really are as body thought. My teeth begin aching but soon I am let go, I do the first thing that comes to my mind, run.

My body is tired, but I don't give in, I run faster and faster but it feels like a never ending maze to the exit door because I am lost.

The next thing I know, I am being blinded by something bright, my eyes are trying to adjust to the change. I find that the lights in my room are now, but then I see something so harrowing that it makes me wish I was never born.

Standing right before me is this horrid creature, much resembling a skeleton. I don't move. The creature seems to be almost mocking me as it circles my figure, taunting me with it's smile. I want to yell, I want to cry but no words are coming from my mouth.

The creature takes a few steps forward until there is merely a few inches of a gap between us. Then I notice that there's a knife, more like a dagger in it's hand and my blood runs cold.

It smirks, as if understanding what I am thinking about, "Sweet Dreams," it whispers in my ear. And then I feel him plunge his weapon into my chest with a look so disgusting I can only imagine that he's done this so many times before.

Tears pool my eyes, and my vision becomes blurry, I am finding it harder to breathe. I fall to the floor in an instant, and I spot a single rose beside me. It's beauty so magnificent, the total opposite of what has just happened to me.

And then, I close my eyes fore I am no longer in this world any more.

oh no..

It's nearly the end of the school holidays, ugh. I'm slightly excited to see my friends again, but at the same time I'd dreading the fact that we're going to get assignments and homework shoved at our faces as soon as school starts. However, that doesn't necessarily mean I have to go to school.. *cough cough* Wow, I think I won't be able to attend school next week! Oh no! Yeah right, if I did anything like that my mum would be on my case in a millisecond. Plus, I'd have to deal with the fact that instead of taking care of me, my mum would be listing off the reasons why I had gotten sick. I can already imagine it. 1. You're on the computer for too long! 2. You never listen to what I say! 3. You don't eat your vegetables! No thanks! I'd rather jump off a plane!

Anyway, my friend and I are going to hang out tomorrow, well hopefully, I hate it when plans cancel on you in the last minute, so I'm trying to avoid that as much as possible. I also have a confession to make, you may think that I'm going to mall to shop and socialise with my friend, but really I'm just going for the food, and some company so I don't look like loner. I know, I know, it sounds like I'm heartless, but gosh I am craving for some junk food right now. Hopefully I can hang on until tomorrow.

For some reason, the concept of documenting my thoughts and feelings into a blog is quite interesting, especially because one year from now I can look back through this blog and read about my experiences. And also, I had like four other blogs before, but for some reason I deleted them, so now I have to deal with the fact that I'll never be able to read about what happened two years ago again. Although, primary school was 50/50 so it doesn't really matter. But still.. Okay, enough gloating, I've got some stuff to write about! Well, this year has nearly come to and end, I mean there's one term left so I mean that's pretty much the end of the end year, but anyway, I feel like I should write about some of the things that have happened so far,

1. I'm closer to figuring out what kind of a person I am. I'll elaborate, back at the start of the year, I was fresh out of the Primary School factory and was entering my way into the jungle of new memories and experiences that is high school. I didn't quite know what time of a person I was and what made me who I am, but now I have more of an idea of what separates me from other people. And anyway, people didn't really have personalities back in primary school, so that doesn't count, mainly because you're basically what your friends are like. Whereas in high school I have such a wide variety of friends, I've got a friend who's like this ultimate nerd but also likes to have a laugh, I've got this nice and caring friend who always put the people she cares about first, I've got a musical and social friend who randomly bursts into singing a song at random moments, I've got a friend who loves making herself look good yet for some reason doesn't seem conceited to us, her friends, mainly because she has a personality that's good enough to cover that up, and I've also got a friend who adores Tobias from Divergent and will go to all lengths to ensure that her happily ever after features him in it, and also is a soccer fanatic so she's pretty good at that as well (besides looking at theo James pictures online, that is). So yeah, this point is really long but it pretty much sums my first statement up!

2. I've learnt to conquer unknown feelings that I'm less acquainted with. This year I went through a storm of emotions, jealousy, helplessness, excitement, regret, happiness, shock (in a good way), and there's more. But through these ups and downs, I feel like I've identified what makes me react a certain way and have learnt to manage it better so that I don't go all psycho. I've also learnt how to act around my friends, meaning that during the start of the year I didn't quite know how to talk with them or even share my opinions, but now I can, and I know what to say and what not to in certain situations. I've also learnt to accept my feelings and embrace my thoughts because I guess that's pretty much makes up what I am.

3. What types of people to avoid. My high school is no Mean Girls, but it still features elements that aren't necessarily all unicorns and rainbows. Particularly with the way girls act. Now, girls can be so so scary sometimes. Like, the way they talk about people behind their backs is so terrifying. I'll explain why. I've had people talk to me about other people, and let's just they weren't commenting on how good Beth's (a made up name, lol) haircut looked. People talk about their own friends behind their backs. The popular crowd in my school aren't exactly royalty but they're not people who are willing to be hang out with you 24/7 either, they're pretty much in the middle. Available to you if you're desperate enough to try and talk to them. But even then, they'll still leave you in the rubble if they someone who interests them better than you do. Anyway, back to my point. I'm not saying that only popular people do this either, I've witness it first hand with my own friends as well, but that wasn't exactly gossiping. (More on that story later). So, you could be hanging out with somebody, and all of sudden they'll just be like, "ohmigosh, Beth has been so attention-seeking lately, like have you seen the way she talks to me and the others? And those clothes? What was she thinking? And she's so braggy, like I don't mean to talk about people behind their backs, but I feel like she's asking me to with the way that she shoves everything that she owns in people's faces. Like are you a shopping mall? Then why the heck are you shoving pricetags in my face like some damn sales representative?" See what I mean? Like one minute they could be talking to you about Beth, and the next they could be talking to Beth about YOU. You see what I mean? You can never trust people completely. Especially in school. I've had quite a number of moments when people start trying to get a response from me by talking about a certain person, aka. Forcing me to gossip. For example, "Hey, don't you think that Beth can be a bit controlling at times?" In this case, they could either be genuinely asking you if you've been having the same problem, and wanting advice on how to deal with it. Which would be fine, because then Beth would be the bad person here because she's hurting her friend's feelings. But the person talking to you could also be working for the enemy and is trying to find some intel to report back to her team, aka Beth. So that's why it's best to act neutral. So,"Oh, I don't know. I mean, I've never witnessed it." Will hopefully put an end to that discussion because there's no fire to fuel. Being a victim of these cases back in primary school, I can definitely say I have learnt from my mistakes.

Anyway, that's all for today's post. I'll have some points up later. Hopefully you'll enjoy some extra info from my life! Bye!

the holidays yayah!

We we we so excited, we so excited bECAUSE IT'S FRIDAY EVERYDAY! How, you ask? Well, I guess from the title you've already guessed, so I'm not going to bother. But anyway, do you know how much I have awaited this moment? Basically this whole term was spend whining and groaning and kicking and punching  and wondering when the holidays were going to start. But now it has! I feel like I shouldn't waste these precious moments because last time I did, and I regretted it so much when school started. So I am determined to not let this gift go to waste! I'm doing a German assignment, and one thing led to another, and well, I kind of started blogging. Hey, it's not my fault assignments suck! Anyway, that's all for today!

sad, sad, days

Currently listening to Gangnam Style to make myself feel better, don't ask why. Group projects suck, that's all you need to know. Anyway, what else is up? Um, other than the fact that I have done pretty much nothing during the first half of this year, there's nothing much. Yes, I struggled with assignments here and there, but that's only because I procrastinated. A lot. So that is the reason why I have decided to make 'no procrastinating' my goal for this term. I don't think that's going to last very long, if you ask me.

I think it's time to recap over everything that's happened so far this year, first of all, I think I'm at my breaking point with one of my friends. The thing is, I don't think she even knows that she's doing it, but she tends to make other feel bad by asking about what they've done so far in work ALL THE TIME! Like you could be doing a maths worksheet, and feel good about yourself because you know all the answers, but then she'd come along and ask what question are you up, I'm on question "blah blah blah", and most of the time it turns out that's a gazillion questions ahead of you, which suddenly makes you feel bad because you know you'll never be as good as her. I know I shouldn't let this stuff get to me, but it just does, and most of the time I feel like punching something because of it.

It's really annoying, but I can't even do anything about it because she gets mad over the simplest of things, which I can't even comprehend because with the way she makes my friends and I feel sometimes, we'd be the ones doing that most of the time.

School is just so blugh sometimes, I really don't see any enjoyment besides having friends to keep you entertained. It's like a prison. There are fun times, but it's times like these when I feel like cowering in a corner and just letting me express my anger on something. Since I don't have anything to let out my anger on, I'm expressing myself via this blog, which, when you think about it is really sad, but whatever!

Now I realise that most, or if not, some of my posts can be very negative, so I'm going to take a moment to be grateful for what I have by doing something really simple. I'm going to make a list of things that I should be happy about, and then a list of the things that is making me feel sad today,

filler soz!

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ugh school again

The holidays have ended, and you know what that means! Going to school! Jumping off a cliff! Yay! Anyway, you will not believe what happened last term, (I know, I'm a term late of informing you of this, but YOLO) I thought that school started on Monday, but actually, it was the day after. So I pretty much looked like an idiot as I casually strolled through the gates expecting greetings from my fellow peers, instead I was met with an empty quad and some teachers laughing at my face. That didn't really happen, but I felt like it was. Oh the power of the mind. We started woodwork in Tech, and we get to make a carry-all. I'm going to make it useful and stylish! We also started Geography. Geography. Yup, I know. Surprisingly, it was interesting but oddly unsatisfying. But I think that's just because we watched this video on how us humans are destroying the world and how some resources for phone manufacturing is going to run out in a few years and we won't have enough resources to provide the whole world with. Fun times.

I normally make a post in a month, so this has to be interesting enough to last a whole month, so, here's something big. I don't watch revenge any more. I know, it's depressing, especially since much of my blogging was spent fangirling over the characters. Oh well, such is life.

sorry not sorry

Wow, keeping up with a blog is hard. I literally feel like a huge failure right now. It's been 3 months! 3 months since my last post, and I guess I stopped writing at that time because I was going through a lot of stress. Why, you ask? Well, it's because I've finally realised I'm in high school, and as soon as I did, WOAH WE HAVE AN ASSIGNMENT DUE TOMORROW, and guess what, I didn't study! Or what about the time I was thinking about uPDATING MY BLOG, but homework's just being all in your face like, "hey", "what you doin'", "you have an assignment due tomorrow", "you should start on it". And I'm just all laid back and chillin', like "no", I will do whatever the heck I want. Shut your face. Don't talk back. *Punches homework in the face* Yeah, see? You should've been quiet.

So that's why I haven't been able to post for the last three months, but I will try to be better from now on, but I doubt I will because I just can't. Apparently I have to work on a "better balanced lifestyle", so I'm going to listen to my PE teacher's advice, no, but really, I do. Anyway, I know I've been pretty lame, so I will try to make up for that, but until then, have fun reading this post over and over for the next few weeks! Because I doubt I will have time to write another post.